I’m gonna be honest here.
I can’t seem to get my head into the blogging game.
The last two weeks have been so insanely busy that I a) haven’t had the time or b) when I do have the time, my mind goes blank.
Take note that I’m not complaining here. It’s been a non stop, but fulfilling couple of weeks. I thoroughly enjoy being on-the-go! That’s my personality. I like having things to do, people to see and places to go. But as of late, it’s taken everything within me to keep my house running and the kids alive, let alone have some quiet time to write down my thoughts.
Quiet time when you’re a mom is nearly non-existent, amirite?
I love to blog. I love expressing myself this way and I love sharing anything interesting, helpful or tasty with others. But I also love other things… like running, diy projects, bubble baths, visiting friends, baking, and so on.
I guess what I’m trying to say here is that I have to juggle the things I love when I’m only given an allotted amount of time to do them. I’m already a juggling mother as it is between nap times, play groups, work, groceries, meltdowns, cleaning, laundry, dinner guests, birthdays…
I could keep going, but I’m sure you get the point.
Lately, my main priority has been my health. I’m working hard to gain back my muscle and strength, while also staying on the clean eating train. So whenever I have a few minutes to myself, I go for a run. That in itself can be quite a feat when dealing with a baby that won’t nap and a toddler who needs a snack every 30 seconds. And the minute I’m done, I immediately fall back into my routine in order to keep up with the days workload, hence why there isn’t much time for anything else.
But I’m happy with my health being at the top of my list right now. I think the reason why it’s the most important “me” time is because I notice the most amount of change. Now, I’m not just talking about weight loss or calories burned… I’m talking about internal changes as well!
Trust me… there are days I am dragging my butt onto my treadmill or out my door. I have zero desire to exercise and I wonder where the energy will even come from in order to finish it. But no matter how I’m feeling going into it, I always desire the after effects that running gives me.
My mental clarity for one. It considerably clears the foggy roads inside my brain. I remember things that normally I would forget (it’s scary how often I forget) and I can navigate my day with ease and organization.
Another obvious effect is my mood. I can’t even try to ignore this one. The degree of positivity it brings to my day astounds me. Moments and situations that typically would set me off, no longer seem as infuriating. It’s almost as if the act of physical exercise helps soften the blow in circumstances where I would be easily angered or highly anxious. This right here is most certainly one of the main reasons why I love to run.
I’m also fond of challenging myself and the high I get when I defeat those challenges. It makes me feel like I can conquer anything that I put my mind to. I feel fierce, uplifted and determined to take on the next challenge. Be the best version of myself that I can be.
And I guess if I’m being totally frank here… I also thoroughly enjoy the peacefulness. My time away from everyone and everything. Even though I’m exercising, there’s a calm that it brings. It’s almost as if I get lost and for a short moment, I think about nothing besides the road that’s in front of me. That’s quite a feeling for a fast paced worrier like myself, whose brain never shuts off. Maybe it’s because I don’t have anyone tugging on my pant leg or asking me 101 questions.
The list could go on, but what I’m getting at here is that I’m learning how to prioritize my “me” time. I have a plethora of hobbies and passions, but not nearly as much time to do them. Right now, I know that I need to allot the most amount of time to my mental and physical health, and the rest will follow.
So this post is to say that I’m still here and I’m not going anywhere. Just bear with me as I work on bettering myself while juggling life ❤